last paper is over.. but the ecstasy and exhilaration i expected was not even remotely hanging in the air. and so, all we had was a very disappointing, long and sad day.

looking forward to tomorrow though. finally get to see the girls!

stomachache last night nearly rendered me dead. wonder if it was a case of food poisoning, stress or just a weak stomach. hmm, but the rest of the family did not have any problems. at least the stomachache disappeared in the night, so the morning paper was relatively ok.

one last paper to go, before i celebrate my freedom! and meanwhile, i continue to fret about the availability of a job, and whether should i pursue an engineering career.

-note to self: collect money. flu jab. travel insurance. luggage. change currency. plan trip.

another hot sweltering day. good for hanging clothes. taking naps. probably nothing much else.

already daydreaming and planning post-exams activities. ktv, mj, vball, eat, talk crap, catch up. sleep. slack.

someone employ me soon! the reality of being jobless looms larger in my face every passing day.

weather is so hot! sweat sweat sweat. smelly. yikes

paper yesterday could have been better. but i shall lower my standards now that there is insufficient time. want to throw everything behind and just slack. the compulsion gets stronger every single day. sleeping on and off, lying on the bed the whole day also seems a super idea.

有些事情，应该过了就算了。一切应从心态上去改变。如果只有你一个人在大声嚷嚷，只会显得你小家子气。

yeah i fixed the skin, cause it was really quite ugly and unreadable. but i had no time to source a nice skin, so it shall have to be one from blogger.

simple happy day yesterday. went to simlim to buy stuff, before dinner at raffles food place. coffee bean ultimate ice blend, then caught the movie 'taken' by liam neeson. lalala, just happy. =)

back to mugging. blea.

didn't have a meal at home the entire week, and had ice cream 3 times this week! oh gosh. design project makes me so tired, but finally its over, no thanks to some of my group members.. now that its time to start studying, my enthusiasm has ebbed. booo

on a cheerier note, eating out so many times this week, here's some photos. starting with shokudo's 3 scoops of ice cream on tues. green tea, chocolate, cookies and cream

now you see it...

now you don't..

and being my very cute bf, who knows i was in a bad mood due to disgusting design, he also took some photos that made me lol.
hiding....

peek-a-boo! 这样可爱, don't care if you disagree, i think so 就好. :P

then knowing sharon was also quite affected by design, we went 2am dessert bar @ holland village on thursday. e setting made us all sleepy, although in normal cases, the word to use should have been cosy. haha the photos are a bit dark, cause we didn't dare use flash.

D.S.S (deconstructed strawberry shortcake). i liked e strawberry panna cotta, but not the white chocolate mousse. anyway, i think deconstructed foods tend to be an acquired taste. oh ya, the rose petal sorbet was yummy! maybe next time (god knows how far away in the future), i'll ask for the warm chocolate tart with this sorbet instead of the original orange one.

Smores. chocolate ice cream with caramelised marshmallows, and graham crackers. this woke freddie up from his stupor. hahaha he happily finished more than half of this.

and to celebrate the end of design, and to compensate ourselves for the mad dash to hand in the report, we wanted some good food for dinner! and since he wanted burgers, we went to try our luck at smokinn frogz at cherry ave off bukit timah road. but perhaps cause it's a friday, the place was fully packed. a lot of caucasians chilling out with friends and family over beer. so we had no choice but to abandon this.

we finally decided on relish by wild rocket, which was located on the second floor above cold storage of cluny court. and we were not disappointed! the following "photos do not do the food any justice".

the bacon and cheese burger, which i know is the standard burger he would order. i kept saying that it was actually the higher-end version of burger king's turkey bacon burger. but freddie asked me not to insult relish's version. hahaha. of course i know its much much nicer than BK's one, the patty was so delicious, juicy and charred just right at the edges. BK cannot fight. the bacon was also thick and crispy.

the surprise order-portobello tofu burger. this one was so unexpectedly yummy for a vegetarian dish. there was no meat, no bread. but the portobello was so juicy, it stained the plate black, and as though there was soup being served. the tofu was not as scary as i thought, not yucky or incompatible with the mushroom. and since it wasn't bread, it didn't become soggy from the juices.

then! i had reverso from island creamery. haha thus concludes my sinful and stressful week. first paper on thurs! last paper on next wed! then i am free! though still jobless la...

finally had the chance to go uniqlo at tampines one. the queue wasn't so bad today, about 15-30 minutes only. but the range was far less exciting than the hongkong one. though we still managed to grab at least a couple of tees each.

then we headed to a restaurant called say cheeze, cause the food looked not bad. but, the baked salmon risotto i had was disappointing. the mushroom risotto as described in the menu came as normal rice. there were no mushrooms, and it was not risotto. the salmon was dry, and the rice was not nice. the cheese and sauce were also too little. i don't think i'll go back again. blea.

started editing the final report. hopefully we can get it done asap.

从日常生活琐事，可以看出许多事。
譬如，挑剔。 哪有人把普通体恤分类，而且规定只能放在特定位置？又哪有人会去注意10双袜子，有没有替换轮流穿？
又譬如，贪睡。早20分钟叫你起床不行。准时叫你起床，你又会躲进棉被里，导致迟到1个钟头。
抑或者，麻烦。问我想吃什么，然后又对我的意见发表意见。最终，还是吃你想吃的。 那你到底问我来干吗？

也可以看出坏脾气。为了小事大吵一番，容易激动，又理直气壮觉得自己对。数十次后，还是从不虚心受教。
也许可以说是任性。明明自己闹别扭，却不肯说话，要你猜到底在气什么。

开始时，真的严重性被烦到。 好痛苦啊，截然不同，怎么相处？但，又不是谈1-2周的恋爱。往长远去想，若真想要珍惜一个人，一段恋情，这些小事不足挂齿。迁就一点，在某些事上多沟通，两个人不同的习性，应该可以和睦地融合在一起，甚至擦出不一样的默契。

3年多了，多几个月？不清楚，but who's counting?

controversial language ahead. watch out.

i am scared of cats, from an incident since young. but as from last night, i hate cats. cats that are fucking make such damn awful snarling and rasping noises that made me want to kill them. wouldn't mind if i had some stones to throw at them, just so they can stop fucking under my window. i had to even move to my mum's room to sleep. i hate cats. wouldn't mind if they don't exist.

i'm not making a mountain out of a molehill, but it really did matter to me. if you do risky things or endanger yourself, that is irresponsible behaviour to me. i dont want anyone i love get hurt due to their own careless behaviour. to me, i feel that to show that you love someone is to treat yourself well, so that the someone doesnt have to worry about you. if you play the hero and get yourself killed, a plague of courage would be of no use to me. i don't know how to say it, but i feel it strongly.

just kinda boiling at everything now. grrr. but its gonna pass, so well, i shall go concentrate on studying.

反反复复的心意，让我不知所措。 can you stop trying to make me explode?! i was ready to oblige the last time, even though i felt stupid-fied. but you changed your mind. now you want me to forfeit money and do something equally stupid. i really don't want to be rude, and i really do want to go on a holiday with you two. but this is really really not the way. the way you're doing things, there's no plan, just based on your whim and moment's desire. and you expect me to keep compromising? i'm sorry that's not possible. i could if i wanted to, but then there'll be low enthusiasm when the time comes round. what's the point????? 别让我每次跟你说话忐忑不安，害怕听到又另一个请求。如果真如此，那也太悲哀了。

and yeah, maybe i should stop reading. cause i suddenly realised that you actually know nothing, even though you pretend you do, in that annoying attitude of yours.

caught shinjuku incident yesterday at iluma. i quite like the film, cause it's exciting and gripping. but there were some gory scenes typical of yakuza. haha and he didn't like the ending, which i actually expected.

school's officially over, in preparation of exams. but monday i've still gotta travel 1.5 hours to hand in fyp final report and attend meetings.

right now, i shall settle down to calculating pipe diameter. accompanying me shall be cheer chen, fish leong, khalil fong.

sian.

apparently, my recent blog entries have caused concern. haha dun worry girls, i'm fine. just tired out by school work and unfortunate people that i work with. i know that to tough out this month and i'll be fine. but it is still so far away. 过一天算一天。 :(

jiayou for exams! and take care ya'll.

did i misunderstand you? mistook your eagerness and enthusiasm as a burden? 以小人之心，度君子之腹，误会你无事不登三宝殿。 a chance to discuss a possible last trip together, and i nearly caused unhappiness.

you will probably never know, but i am grateful to be given this chance to treasure. hopefully it won't be the last, but the first of which signals a subtle transition.

was looking forward to a short self-declared late last day of school. hope shattered. gosh, how angsty i feel right now. don't even have that few hours of luxury to hide away.